Hello lovely people :-) hope you are all ok..
anyway I just realised I haven't blogged in a while.. well thats because there isn't much to say.. still struggling..
depression is mega bad, I've been in bed until like at least 3pm every day as I feel like I have nothing to get up for, and I have NO motivation at all. I guess I'll just have to keep plodding on..CAMHS are thinking of giving me new anti depressants as I have stopped the Prozac..
phobia is ok I guess, I haven't been going out so I don't need to worry about picking something up, and everything seems to have been quiet around here with bugs etc, so the phobia is actually in control at the moment, which is really good..
cutting is ok.. I'm in control, I manage to control most of the urges now.. it's been a few weeks since I last let the urges beat me..I'm kind of proud of myself..
suicidal thoughts are still taking over at times. I'm trying to ignore them, although at times I feel as if they are right, I shouldn't be here living..
Today has been fairly rubbish..I've been in bed most the day, got up and did some tidying while everyone was shopping..then sat down and watched Peter Andre on tv so that cheered me up a bit, and tonight..well this morning as its 2:12am I'm feeling ok.. *hopes no one dies reading this*.. I've had no family arguments either today so that's good!
I'm off bed now.. well I'll just check facebook, twitter and tumblr first :-). speak soon. oh and Merry Christmas hehe :-)
