On Friday I'm meant to be going to see Peter Andre and The Rise on tour in Liverpool. As much as I want to go and see them, my anxiety is through the roof. It's only Wednesday. I have lost so many hours sleep over this. Worrying about things that probably won't even happen. I've had so many panic attacks already.
Not only do I have to go and deal with the concert on the Friday, I'm also staying at my dads new house after and on the Saturday, I'm meant to be going shopping in the morning then a football match in the afternoon.
I don't know how I'm going to cope.
I should be looking forward to a night away seeing Pete and spending time with my dad, step-mum and my best friend, but instead I just want it over with already.
I'm going to make myself even more ill with all this anxiety. I just can't cope with it.
I don't know what to do anymore :'(
Wednesday, 23 January 2013
Monday, 21 January 2013
Things are going well.. I guess.
I just realised I haven't blogged since Christmas, so happy new year to you all!
Anyway, bit of an update of what's been happening so far this year.
Things have been going well. I seem to be beating depression as I've not felt as low, and I've not cut for 3 weeks. This might not seem an achievement to some, but to me it's huuuuge. I'm so proud of myself. It's not been easy, but I'm getting there.
Anxiety wise, I've not really been out much. I've had a kidney infection for about 2 weeks, I refused to go to the doctors until Friday, but I'm now on antibiotics so hopefully that'll help and I'll get better! My next goal is to sort this anxiety out. I've decided that the anxiety is probably the main cause to my depression, because I'm depressed because I can't go out, if you get me?
I think if I can beat the anxiety, everything else will be easier. I hope I'm right!
There's been a lot of things going on at home recently again, things are still awful here, but I'll get through it.
I'm also spending a lot more time down at my dads house which is good!
I am beginning to sink back down now, but I'm hoping by writing a positive post will stop me from sinking too far.
I hope everyone else's year is going good!
Anyway, bit of an update of what's been happening so far this year.
Things have been going well. I seem to be beating depression as I've not felt as low, and I've not cut for 3 weeks. This might not seem an achievement to some, but to me it's huuuuge. I'm so proud of myself. It's not been easy, but I'm getting there.
Anxiety wise, I've not really been out much. I've had a kidney infection for about 2 weeks, I refused to go to the doctors until Friday, but I'm now on antibiotics so hopefully that'll help and I'll get better! My next goal is to sort this anxiety out. I've decided that the anxiety is probably the main cause to my depression, because I'm depressed because I can't go out, if you get me?
I think if I can beat the anxiety, everything else will be easier. I hope I'm right!
There's been a lot of things going on at home recently again, things are still awful here, but I'll get through it.
I'm also spending a lot more time down at my dads house which is good!
I am beginning to sink back down now, but I'm hoping by writing a positive post will stop me from sinking too far.
I hope everyone else's year is going good!
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