today sucks.

been such a struggle to get through today.
Spent most the day upstairs in bed, feeling unable to get up and face everyone..when I did come down, I ended up going back up to cry. its been one of those 'why am I bothering to fight all this?' days. it sucks. Hardly eaten anything either. It's just been awful.. and with family things going on too, its just so shit. I would blog about the family things, but I dont know who reads my blog so yeh.. but if you really want to know tweet me.
I've had a huge headache all evening too. I just dont understand why I keep fighting.. Why haven't I just given up forever yet?

I swear getting referred to CAMHS was one of the worst things ever. Since getting sent there things have only got worse.