anxiety.

I'm staying at my dads tonight for the second time since we moved out last year.. I the last time was Friday night. OMG. I am so so anxious. I'm actually on the verge of losing it tonight, but I know, nothing bad will happen, it is all in my head. I must not let it win. I must stay here and keep fighting as it is a huge achievement. I did it Friday, I can do it again. What's going to happen? nothing. I just need to keep repeating that. I want to turn away from it all and go back home to my mums house, but doing that is just weak. I am not weak. I am stronger than this anxiety. I am going to beat this. I am strong. Things have been so good this weekend, I want to do this just to say I've achieved something else.

today has been a good day!

omgggg. blogger has changed its layout.. I dont like it :|..
but anyway..
Today has been pretty awesome.

I was feeling anxious to start off with but I managed to go out in the car for about half an hour with my counsellor.. which was an achievement as I nearly chickened out...
I then went out to get my glasses adjusted with my dad.. this was a big achievement because I hardly ever go out with him after our past and it takes a lot for me to trust him..
Then, I went into town with my mum... we went to three different shops.
I'm so proud of myself :)