When my anxiety started getting the better of me and i stopped going to school, I told people I had migraines, because I was too ashamed to say I had mental problems.
When I had to leave school half way through the day because I was too anxious to stay, I said its because my head was bad.
When I went to my appointments at CAMHS, I would say I was leaving to go to the hospital to see how my migraines were getting on with my 'new meds'.
I felt better saying I had migraines than saying I had 'mental illnesses'. I was too ashamed and too scared that people would judge me.
I eventually told one of my close friends that I had anxiety and not migraines and thats why I missed so much school.
I felt she was really understanding, and didn't judge, which made me feel more confident about it.
I then improved from there, and started telling people 'the real reason' I missed so much school.
Since then, as I've had even more mental problems, I've not been ashamed to hide it. I'm open about it, and I don't care what people think, if they judge, they aren't true friends and they don't deserve to be in my life.
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