Might aswell blog at 3am because I'm having panic attacks and can't sleep..
But yea,
Things have been awful. Depressions been bad, but the main problem at the moment is food. I'm back to hardly eating, as I'm scared of gaining weight :(. I want to be thin:(. I hate how much weight I've put on so I want to lose it, and more. Of course, my mums picked up on it and is lecturing me to eat, which is causing me to feel worse. I'm just fed up. I just want all these thoughts to go away. I'm scared that even water is going to make me put like half a stone on :'( I hate my head.
I went through something similar during the summer I didn't want to gain more weight (I was at 210 pounds) I slowly became more restrictive of what I consumed that before I knew it I was on an anorexic diet consuming 1000 calories or less (most of the time less) and I found out that was slowing my metabolism making me gain weight so I went to see a nutritionist and I've lost over 10 pounds! So eat better and stay active fight your depression like I'm doing I know we can get out of this but no by hurting ourselfs in any way possible. I know it's hard or that you might have heard it before but it's the truth. I hope you feel better in the morning @OrtizLizzie :-)
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DeleteIm in the same boat as you atm. Food is literally my worst nightmare. I feel like water is full of fats and sugar, i breakdown guaranteed every single day about my weight, ill cry for hours and still the problem.doesn't go away. I'm at the stage of my life that im scarily close to completely given up. Like you, ive had the worst weeks of my life recently. Not only the battle with food, but the battle with life :( you're strong though because you're still here. Lots of people love you! xxxx
ReplyDeleteAww no, I'm so sorry to hear you're in the same boat as me :( I understand that <3 Please don't give up. I don't know who you are, but I'm here for you. you can always tweet me @natster_PJA or facebook me if you have me on there. stay stronggg xxxxx
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