bit of a positive update.

This should have been written over the weekend, but I've been having laptop problems so not been able to come on..


But I had a pretty amazing weekend;

Friday..
My best friend came over to see me, we had an awesome time and a good laugh, just chilling outside in the sun having a catch up.
I also made up with my step sister who I havent seen for a year as we had a huge fall out.. She came up to see me along with her sister, my older step sister. My friend and stepsisters sat outside with me and really cheered me up! Really needed it :D
That day, I didnt have ANY suicidal thoughts at all.. It was amazing..

The good, positive mood carried into Saturday. I didnt do much that day though. Sunday, things were still quite good, but Monday I started going low again.. but didnt hit that really really low patch..

Things have been a bit up and down since then but I'm trying so so hard to keep my head above water..

Hopefully I'll start having more good days soon as if these lows carry on, I cant fight this much longer.